sometimes i'm in denial, and i like it

I'm feeling particularly bad. Last night I didn't sleep until way too late just for kicks, I'm getting increasingly dizzy and numb, and I'm not quite sure what to do with myself. I'm just gross. Mindblowingly gross. I saw a million people yesterday shopping, and then shopped again today. Tomorrow I'm going back to bead reaming for a few hours. I can't really write right now. I don't know why I tried.