Recant eh? Fitting Title

I'm in a bad situation here. One that affects my everyday life and two very important realtionships to me. It's a situation that I have no right to have any say in or that can be fixed. It's something I will get over, it just isn't happening yet. I'm frustrated that it's taking me so long to stop being a jerk, and yet my frustration is coming out. I have had real conversations and expressed my real fears and it's not secret that this is how I feel. As much as I try not to be an alienating bitch, I slipped up with my vomit comment last night. So to all those who are aware of what that was referring to, I apologize. It was mean... and I knew it. Like I said, bottled frustration coming out. I guess it's a difficult line of how expressive one should be in a sort of public forum.