wait... anyone can have access to the internet?

Last year I started up this blog because I was really uncomfortable with my family reading it, namely my aunt. Now here's the thing, I understand that this is a public forum that anyone could be reading, but in my head I always just feel like it's my roommate, my boyfriend, and Matt and his friends reading it. I don't censor myself in front of those people. But the secrecy can only last so long. So I don't know what to do with myself. On one hand I feel like when I'm writing from the Box I am myself in all of my innapropriateness and despression and I feel like that's me and I don't want to lose it. By all logic my family should know me and accept me. I'm really disturbed by family dynamics and how much secrecy exists. There seem to be so many things that are known on such a surface level. This is not the level I blog on. So now I don't know. I want to feel comfortable with this. I want to live in a state where everytime I blog about pot, sex toys, anuses, nudity or queerness I won't have to feel horribly unsettled about my family's capacity to deal with such things. I'm tired of feeling judged. I'm tired of feeling exposed. Maybe I should just start a newsletter.