i'm cool, i swear!

Sometimes I just feel like an awkward little kid tagging along so I can have a chance to talk to people. I'm really trying to push myself to be social, but it doesn't feel (and I don't think it seems) effortless at the moment. As it turns out, I have a shockingly positive attitude compared to a lot of people in my program, and it's becoming clear to me that I have a huge mental block up right now in terms of my own abilities.