what doesn't bend breaks

After some jasmin tea, and crossing off some more mundane tasks like doing dishes and rolling the lasts of my stack of pennies I'm feeling a little more stable. It's shocking how quickly and easily I fall into a mindframe of feeling entirely like I'm not in the right place. I'm taking a course right now which is reminiscent of my fem theory class in terms of the pedagogical style and the feeling in the classroom, and it makes me really happy, but at the same time it makes me really sad that my other classrooms don't feel good.

I just don't know. My profs seem to think I deserve to be here. Fake it til you make it I suppose.