No human emotion can be sustained indefinitely.

Saturday, August 20, 2005

blogstop.com

There is a lot of shit going on right now. So since I've been avoiding the blog anyway, I'm putting an official blogstop in effect. I start school on September 12, so I imagine blogging will start again around that time. I'm trying not to give myself any intense deadlines, so I will just say that by mid september I will start posting again, even if it's to say I need more time. Anyway, I hope your summers end fabulously!

Fuck you haroldsr04ednelson

Man that pissed me off.

Sunday, August 14, 2005

Lay Lady Lay

Besides the stress and crying of Friday, this weekend has been a relaxing one. The main event of yesterday was lying on a blanket in Sunnybrooke Park and reading, and I think the only substantial thing I'll do today is go to the gym. I'm just in the mood for reading, writing and possibly a little cleaning. I have three camper letters that I have to write back to, and I have to do some journalling catch up. But my gym membership runs out on Tuesday, so I suppose I should take advantage.

Stupid weight gain. I lost fifteen pounds at camp, and I could probably lose more if I was willing to limit myself to the meal times and the types food that are available at camp (basically an all carb diet), but I don't have the determination to do that right now. Especially if the medical community is planning on forcing me to change my lifestyle.

Anyway, life is up and down and I'm often lacking hilarious observations. I'm also lacking a computer to take back to school with me, so I have to get on that. Bah.

Sunday, August 07, 2005

I Lay Down in My Party Dress and Never Got Up

I think I might be ready to start blogging again. I don't know. I needed a little break to sort out how I was gonna do this whole thing. Life has been nuts since menno camp. Oh how I miss those mennos now!

So I'm home, and I'm at the Garden. That's a good thing. I'm doing my best to maintain a positive attitude with all the insanity. I also think that I'm just not going to blog when I'm in a funk because it really ends up just sounding dumb and making me feel worse. So I'll avoid that.

For those of you avidly tracking the progression of my crazy numbness, or as I like to call it... okay well I can't come up with anything brilliant. Maybe I should have a contest to name this affliction. Anyway, currently the left side of my torso is numb. Boob and all. It's been numb for just over two weeks now. Last Wednesday I went to the neurologist for test results. Basically he told me that the hospital thinks I have MS but he's not so sure. I have lesions on my brain and spinal chord, which is a sign of MS, but I also have holes in my root nerves which isn't characteristic of MS. So I still don't know. I just did blood work for B12 deficiency, lupus, calcium deficiency, and something else. I also did a chest xray for something that's related to TB. Yowza. I find out in three weeks what's going on (hopefully).

Okay, so for my 20th Birthday party I gathered up a bunch of friends and we went Black Tie Bowling. I have been trying to make this happen since grade twelve. It was really fun. I got to wear my prom dress and sparkles, and a duct tape flower in my hair, so I can't complain. Seventeen people showed up for bowling, so we filled three lanes. It was nice. Out of the ordinary anyway. And every single person who came to bowl dressed up, so I appreciated the fact that my friends are as insane as I am.

We also had a really nice pre-dinner dealy. Though there was a lack of eating. Ah well. I got an awesome Pope (WITH A STUPID HAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!), some hot peacock feather earrings, and a Harry Potter notebook that has a wierd hollogram picture of Harry and the caption "Hold on ter yeh ticket Harry"... What? So yeah, it's pretty awesome.

I had a nice night. It was bizarre to end it off alone. I realized I haven't left a party night alone in forever. I'm always with the Box ladies or with Steve. In true depressive style I sat and watched What Not to Wear (I really feel that TLC is the most depressing I'm-wasting-my-life type channel to watch late at night) until 3am and then I went to sleep.

All in all it was a good night. I had fun, and I think the general reaction was one of goodness.

Monday, August 01, 2005

Is a Kitchen Really a Kitchen Without a Hobart?

I'm home. I'm twenty. I'm in kind of a bad way. I've basically spent the last four days with steve and harry potter. It has been an excellent way to spend my recovery days. Tomorrow I go back into the working world, which is scary and slightly upsetting. I'll get back into the writing soon. Right now, I'm not so into it. bah.